Buckle in, this is going to be another long one! February 25, 2023. The first actual conversation with my father. I went to bed after midnight and was awake by 4:30 am. I got bored trying to go back to sleep so I checked my phone. There were a bunch of messages on facebook messenger from my father - he sent me a good number of messages telling me all about his side of the family and all of their health ailments. He said he at least wanted to tell me that “in case things go

Taking a break in the story, but no worries! I've been writing and the next post is about ready to go live. What have I been up to recently? Well, I started a really cool job that I am loving this month! It's remote and the people really are as great as they seem. Last year I volunteered with them and it seemed too good to be true. Still does, actually. I've even mentioned it when people have checked in on how things are going and I guess I still can't believe it's real. So y

February 24, 2023 - Things are about to get long! I’m looking back now at our early conversations on messenger and on 2/22/23 I’d told my half-sister that I’d done a DNA test and was waiting for the results. I asked if she remembered meeting me at Chili’s back in 1999 (oh, I can’t wait to get to this story later!) and she said she did, and this is where she told me she’d actually looked for me the week before. I don’t know if she’d found me, but she wanted to know why I was r

February 23, 2023 - As I’m looking back on all of this, I can see this was a time where I was so full of hope. (Stupid.) I thought I was going to connect with my half-sister and maybe my father and half-brother. I worried that my father might not be ready or want to hear from me, but I was going to put myself out there to see what happened. As much as it bites me in the ass, and it will, I am always the one reaching out to connect. I carry relationships even beyond their life